We are trying to get a lower rate on our mortgage, so we have been e-mailing our friend, Lori's , son who is working with us. He gave us a figure with closing cost included and without. I asked him if he would tell us what the difference our monthly payment would be with or without including these costs.
He sent back the two figures and then wrote;
"So in the end it will save you $23 dollars " .
As soon as I read this I reached over and grabbed Cassidy's arm so tight because it took my breath away. I scared her , but I showed her what he wrote-- then she understood and smiled.
This is so amazing, I am still so amazed by my Al .
He has always amazed us and continues to do so.
Right after this, Lori had e-mailed me at 3:23, and we had 23 e-mails in our inbox (which we now always have 23 e-mailsin our inbox). Then Nicole tells me that Bryanna (her daughter) was at school today and in one of her classes, a girl was making a shirt with a Green Giraffe on it.
Al's love was so powerful yesterday
Now that I reflect on yesterday, I know why Alec's love was so extra-powerful yesterday. The day started with Nicole coming over for coffee, and us talking mostly about Alec as we do on all of our visits. And about making a difference in children's days with all of these generous donations we are receiving. And how to make Alec's Birthday, the day the most beautiful boy and soul came into our lives and hearts (of course he already had our hearts the day he was in my belly), and the blessing that he chose us and made us the luckiest parents and sister , and that he chose to share his love with everyone he could. We do not get to celebrate Alec's birthday with him and this is heartbreaking and crushing , yet we can share the beauty and love of Alec with others . I told her that the sorrow and sadness I feel doesn't ever go away and since by doing nothing or doing something doesn't change how much I miss Al and how much my heart hurts , then I need to help others because I can and because that is what makes Alec happy and in turn helps my heart knowing we are brightening a child's day. I want to share Alec's love and make that difference that others made for Alec and for us. Nicole helped me with all of my emotions and ideas, as she always does. I believe Alec speaks through her at times. She helped me realize all of this, that though we won't be celebrating, -- Alec's birth-day will always be a day of Love .
Right after Nicole left, my good friend Kim came by. I was having all those anxious feelings and was not going to answer the door because I don't want to see or talk to anyone. But I could see that she was kind enough to bring a donation, how could I ignore her. So I answered the door, we cried alot, and talked alot about Alec and God and Jesus. And unfairness . In the end I told her that while I lost all my faith and trust in God for a long time, and that Alec has become our God, that I know that God/Alec is the only reason I can get out of bed everyday, and function, though sometimes barely. Because if it was on my strength , I would not be able to do anything.
I was glad I answered the door.
I know that all of the signs this day from Al, was him letting me know he was so proud of me today, proud for wanting to help others, proud to share his love, proud that I answered the door. Happy that I know God/Alec are helping me get through each day. Happy that I believe in God again, (though still I am angry at him.)
He sent back the two figures and then wrote;
"So in the end it will save you $23 dollars " .
As soon as I read this I reached over and grabbed Cassidy's arm so tight because it took my breath away. I scared her , but I showed her what he wrote-- then she understood and smiled.
This is so amazing, I am still so amazed by my Al .
He has always amazed us and continues to do so.
Right after this, Lori had e-mailed me at 3:23, and we had 23 e-mails in our inbox (which we now always have 23 e-mailsin our inbox). Then Nicole tells me that Bryanna (her daughter) was at school today and in one of her classes, a girl was making a shirt with a Green Giraffe on it.
Al's love was so powerful yesterday
Now that I reflect on yesterday, I know why Alec's love was so extra-powerful yesterday. The day started with Nicole coming over for coffee, and us talking mostly about Alec as we do on all of our visits. And about making a difference in children's days with all of these generous donations we are receiving. And how to make Alec's Birthday, the day the most beautiful boy and soul came into our lives and hearts (of course he already had our hearts the day he was in my belly), and the blessing that he chose us and made us the luckiest parents and sister , and that he chose to share his love with everyone he could. We do not get to celebrate Alec's birthday with him and this is heartbreaking and crushing , yet we can share the beauty and love of Alec with others . I told her that the sorrow and sadness I feel doesn't ever go away and since by doing nothing or doing something doesn't change how much I miss Al and how much my heart hurts , then I need to help others because I can and because that is what makes Alec happy and in turn helps my heart knowing we are brightening a child's day. I want to share Alec's love and make that difference that others made for Alec and for us. Nicole helped me with all of my emotions and ideas, as she always does. I believe Alec speaks through her at times. She helped me realize all of this, that though we won't be celebrating, -- Alec's birth-day will always be a day of Love .
Right after Nicole left, my good friend Kim came by. I was having all those anxious feelings and was not going to answer the door because I don't want to see or talk to anyone. But I could see that she was kind enough to bring a donation, how could I ignore her. So I answered the door, we cried alot, and talked alot about Alec and God and Jesus. And unfairness . In the end I told her that while I lost all my faith and trust in God for a long time, and that Alec has become our God, that I know that God/Alec is the only reason I can get out of bed everyday, and function, though sometimes barely. Because if it was on my strength , I would not be able to do anything.
I was glad I answered the door.
I know that all of the signs this day from Al, was him letting me know he was so proud of me today, proud for wanting to help others, proud to share his love, proud that I answered the door. Happy that I know God/Alec are helping me get through each day. Happy that I believe in God again, (though still I am angry at him.)
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