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My venture back in my neighborhood

7/28/2013

I have not been able to walk or jog in my neighborhood. It's just too hard to even think about walking with out Alec, we all did family walks together, but alot of the time, Keith and Cass didn't want to go, to which me and Al called them the boring ones and left them home. We loved our special time together.
I did walk once or twice with John and Cassidy and his dogs Fable and Roo because John was so sweet to let Cassidy walk the dogs with him. I tried to get Cass to go with out me but she needed me to go. I felt safe with John since he understood and he is just so nice and we ended up at his house and we got to sit and talk with his sweet wife Barbara.
I did try to go for a jog one day about a month ago and got all ready and put my hand on the door to open it and just broke down and couldn't do it, so I forced myself to clean instead.
And today, I just really wanted to go for a jog and not at the track. I talked about it and told keith I wanted to but was so afraid of my emotions and then talked myself out of it. About 20 minutes later, I mapped out in my head which way I would go and I got my workout clothes on and my ipod and I actually left. I had to jog right away because I knew I would think too much if I walked. My goal was just 10 minutes, not knowing how I would feel. Pink and Taylor Swift 's music got me through. I also kept reminding myself that I used to jog sometimes by myself when Cass and Al were in school or at night. On my way back, I passed a spot where Cassidy would place Alec's Singing Snowman. We played a game with Al and Cass would run ahead of us and put Snowman somewhere that Al could see, and we would say to Alec ,Look Snowman is here how did he do that! Al would smile and laugh and loved seeing where else he would turn up. Cass would sneak back and get him and put him somewhere else. So as I passed this one spot, I could see Snowman sitting there, the memories and moments come rushing back, but I got through them and it wasn't til I got home and Keith asked how it was for me that I teared up as i told him about Snowman which then turned into us smiling and chuckling at how Alec loved this game.
And a heart shape rock was in my path so I picked it up -- a little Love from Al. I probably only did a mile but it felt good to exercise and I got through it, hopefully I can get myself to do it again.
And of course as I just finished typing this, "JOHN" walked by with Fable and Roo! We can always hear him walking by because the dogs leash jingles.

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Sweet Boys

7/27/2013

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When we were in Florida , we had a quiet pool at our resort outside our building which we preferred over the fun pool. After a couple days, a green circle tube float showed up floating in the pool.
(Alec loved to be in the pool in his circle tube float and float and swim around.) So I felt it was a sign from Al. Then one day we were inthe pool and I was throwing Cassidy's barette in the pool and it would sink and Keith and Cass would race to find it. Out of nowhere after playing this for a bit, there is a young boy inside the green float next to me and he asks me what they are doing. I told him I was throwing something for them to find. He watched and smiled as he spun in the float. Then he told me that i should trick them and throw it one way but tell them I threw it a different way. I said good idea and did it. He thought it was so funny. Another time I threw it and he said to Keith that he peeked. He was enjoying watching them and telling me where to throw it to trick them. He just reminded me of Alec so much because me and Al were always teasing Cass and Dada calling them the boring ones and me and Al had a pool song "Daddy's a big baby a mulch". This boy was sweet and he appeared and then left within 15 minutes.
Another time, we were at a water park and Keith and Cass went one way to get ice cream and I went to get our things that were on chairs. As I got there there was a little boy crying and was a teary runny nose mess and walking in circles and saying Mama. I looked around and noone was with him or helping him. I said are you lost and he nodded yes. I said I'll help you and his tears instantly stopped and he was comforted, it amazed me how he just trusted me and wasn't scared anymore. I walked him up to a park worker and told her he was lost, she got a security worker and she told him she would find his Mama. As they walked away I heard her ask him his name and he said Alex. It was close enough to Alec for me especially since so many people called Alec Alex.
I feel Alec put these sweet boys there for me to cheer me and so I could feel his presence.

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This Giraffe Came Home With Me

7/24/2013

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This Giraffe came home with me the other day. This is the Giraffe that was at the hair salon that I went to on an interview and once I saw the giraffe I knew I Alec was letting me know that I should work there. I took the job back a few months ago and seeing the giraffe has brought me comfort. The owner asked me if I would like to take it home, she was getting rid of it because it doesn't match the decor and she knew I had to have it. What was really sweet is that she told me if I needed the Giraffe to stay at the salon to comfort me then i could keep him there in the back room. I told her I would be ok with him at home and now he is in our living room.
What made me think, was that I had just found out that the Giraffe was a gift from a client to the previous owner (who still works there), and she didn't know what to do with it so she kept it in the back room. And the owner now decided to put it in the facial room probably a few months before I started.
I just felt when she told me this that it was waiting for me.

Then last week at work, my boss from a distance held up sunglasses and asked if they were mine she said they were left on her desk, I said no, and she said are you sure, I said No they weren't mine. She just kept holding them up waiting for me to claim them. She said I thought for sure they were yours. I said why are they animal print and she said yes. Then a bit later I saw them laying on the desk and they were Giraffe print. I figured they just had an animal print in the brown , but these were brown and white definate Giraffe print. It was like Alec replaced the Giraffe statue with Giraffe sunglasses to comfort me.

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This post is from Scott--(Uncle Scooch)

7/22/2013

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One year ago today, my Guardian Angel (nephew) watched over me and made sure I made it through my ordeal. Love You Pal!!!!!!

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Extra Al Love

7/20/2013

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Alec gives me extra love at night and tonight I just happen to be on the computer to share.
The first was when I read a story about a fundraiser a Mom has in Memory of her daughter in Westford and it is a 23 mile bike ride. Then I read a story about a girl in Tewksbury with Cancer and the "Cops for Kids" were giving her a check and there were 23 police cruisers in a parade for her. Right after that I hear on TV on a show I never watch ( called omg insider) , a psychic medium is asking an actress if there is someone named "Bubbie" in her life.

And last night just before I went to bed I saw Touched by an Angel on the guide and decided to recorded it, I have only watched this show 3 times in the past 2 1/2 years and the first one I watched was a definate message from Alec. The one I recorded and watched last night was about a boy with cystic fibosis and his friend is telling someone that he has been in the hospital 22 times and the boy says," No, It"s been 23 times, remember I was born there"

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Some pics and Al love in Florida

7/19/2013

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Here's a pic of Cass in Downtown Disney on a Giraffe stool!

We found Papa in Florida (Alec called Papa a Flamingo)

At Epcot, near the entrance were these things that looked like lockers and we walked by them a few times and then Keith walked over to see what it was and I thought it was a memorial wall, but it was tiny pictures or messages that people must have paid to put on the wall. Keith walked right up to this one which was amazing because they look big here but they are really tiny and there were many walls loaded with tons and tons of pics and messages.
It was a special message from Al to us.

These are some of the 23 signs Al gave us.
The pic below is the bus number that took us from the airport to our resort.

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Amazing Alec on Twitter

7/16/2013

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Cassidy and I (Dada was sleeping) just made a Twitter account to share more of Alec's love and signs and to let others share their Alec love and signs too.

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My Goodnight Love from Al

7/13/2013

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Every night, Alec always gives me a sign that he is with me. I have needed my Kindle to fall asleep and I play solitaire ,words with friends and word games or read the news. And every night, I make a word that I didn't add before I play it and it gets 23 points, or the other player will make the word "Al", and "Bubs" is a word!
Even though I know I will get my good night Love from Al, he still amazes every time he does it and last night he really amazed me.
I was on my Kindle reading a story and I had the news on really low, I wasn't watching it, but I looked up to hear them talking about someone who stole a memento from a child's headstone. As I watched I knew the Mom who was being interviewed, her daughter was also a patient at the Jimmy Fund, she had a brain tumor. So sad to say she went to Heaven in 2009-- just 4 years old. Me and Al knew them and cared about them. This was the second time I saw the Mom on tv, the first was back in May when on a whim I recorded a long island Medium show and she and her son were on it to connect with her daughter. I had often wondered about how she was, and sadly now I knew. I did contact the Mom and we plan on getting together at some point.
So again on a whim, I see this story and am so upset for them because someone took a special purple hippo figure from her headstone, it has special meaning and it is a discontinued disney figure. Then they show her stone and her birthday is June 23. I say to myself, that her Birthday is the 23 rd too like Al and wonder if Al brought us together again. Then as soon as this story is over, a story about the cost of cars comes on and it says this car costs, $23,000. I love my Al signs and get so emotional because he amazes me so much and as I look at the tv, the man talking's name is on the screen and his name is "Alec". Oh my gosh Al how do you do it, oh yeah "it's Magic" and you're amazing!
As if that wasn't enough for me from my beautiful boy, I then read another story on my kindle that says," A man sold his wife's $23.000 wedding ring for $10.oo.

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Disney is not the happiest place on earth...no where is if Alec is not there

7/12/2013

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We went on a trip to Florida / Disney last week. We had given a trip to Cassidy for Christmas because we had told her we would go away last year but didn't. We told her she could pick the place, she was undecided and we came up with ideas; a cruise, island etc. but when we priced them all out they were just way too expensive and we settled for the one place we didn't want to go beacause it was the most reasonable price. So anticipating it was tough, yet we were looking forward to just getting away and Keith was looking forward to a break from work since it was 2 years since he had time off.
First thing we see in Logan airport is a Giraffe suitcase with a tag that had "A B" in big letters hanging on it. It brought us a smile and comfort, then in line beside us is a boy with his suitcase with an image of a Giraffe on it, it was just amazing. Then I see this same boy with his big sister and their parents and they are going to Disney, ugh. It was so hard to see the family that was us and of course made me so sad. But throughout our vacation, we noticed that all around us were families that looked like us now, Mom Dad and their daughter, I truly know that Alec surrounded us like this because he saw how sad I was when I saw that family.
Cassidy claims she had fun, but her main focus and happiness came when she was swimming in the pool and not the fun main pool with water slides, nope.. the plain old pool that was quiet and warm. She has always mostly just wanted to swim when we have gone away and this time was the same. So Disney was a bad choice for us, but at least she can say she did it and not see those Disney commercials and feel like she's missing something. I thought Keith and Cassidy were going to be miserable because they both hate the heat and crowds and lines, but Keith was so patient and trying to make the best of it for us, I was the most negative. Of course the whole time we were thinking of Alec and missing him so so much and trying to enjoy Cassidy at the same time. Alec gave us so many signs of Love, letting us know he was with us which helped us smile. One of those was when we were at breakfast and our waiter reminded us so much of Cleveland (Al's healer). He was loud and boisterous and called Cassidy "Princess" which Al called her. Then he brings her a cupcake with a candle and says it's for her birthday with a card that is signed by all the characters. A few minutes earlier I said to Cass that we should've got her an autograph book. ( and It wasn't Cass's birthday.) Then he gave the people behind us a birthday cupcake and he says "Happy 23 rd birthday", we all smile and look and it was amazing as it is but when I looked , I said to Keith that guy is not 23 and he says I know, he was probably 40ish. Which made it even more special that our Cleveland waiter chose to tease him and say happy 23 rd birthday. Al surprises us in the most silliest sweetest ways all the time.
All throughout the vaca., we heard many times someone say Alec.
I will share more of all the amazing signs Al gave us throughout, he is the best.

As I am typing this, I have Live with Kelly and Michael on and Michael says" tonight at 8:23 ,the sun sets right between the buidings in Manhatten". Then they all repeat "At 8:23 tonight"!
Amazing, that's my sweet boy!

Here's the suitcase that we saw as we got into Logan

And here is the next one we saw, the image of the Giraffe is at the bottom, plus it has Giraffe print

And her's Cass with her Giraffe suitcase

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