Having Cassidy go to middle school I thought would be so tough emotionally, but having a new routine has made the drop off and pick more bearable. It was so hard everyday to drive over the bridge to Cassidy's old school, and think of how I carried Alec in my arms over it and then pushed him in his stroller over it with his singing Bunnay. Seeing the swing at the playground that Al loved so much. Waiting in the drop off line while Alec eagerly waited for his special kiss from Cass before she got out, and as soon as he got it, his smile was so big , it was pure delight for him. Driving past the handicap spot where me and Al would park in sometimes and read books together til Cass got out of school. Hearing Alec ask Cass as we walked over the bridge, "How was school today, Taa?" he loved ask her this. All of these the sweetest of memories and moments , yet on a daily basis reliving what was was just too much.
I tried to focus on this one memory to get me through driving over the bridge.
One morning, I walking Cass to school over the bridge I had Alec in my arms, as I always did until he got too heavy to carry . And a women driving up to school , yelled over to me, she said , "Oh my gosh, He is always so happy-- every time I see him he always has the biggest smile on his face-- I just love to see his big smile everyday"
I did not know this person and still don't know who it was. But it touched me in such a special way, that she was so touched to see Alec's beautiful happy face everyday, and that she told me. That's the impact Al had on others.