A few weeks ago, Alec's girlfriend, Cori, or "Gearl friend" as he lovingly called her came over for a visit. She has offered all along to come sit with me, but I just could not do it. I finally felt ready to see her, I have wanted to see her all along but was too afraid of it being just too hard. So the day came and I was excited to see her and so so anxious. As I sat waiting for her, I said to Al, "Al, I am going to see your Gearlfriend". And it hit me and I a lmost wanted to call it off. Then I look out the window and I think I see her pulling up and can't believe it, I answer the door and there she is, one of the sweetest, kindest and gentlest person I know. We hug and all my fears and anxieties disappear. Then she says this is crazy, we have the same exact car! I thought when I looked out the window that I saw her in the same car as mine but thought no way. But there were our same cars and same exact color! I told her when we got my car I had wanted white but one of the color choices was called Cherry and Alec loved cherries so I had to get that one. Which just made this car thing with Cori so much more special. It was such a sweet sign from Al that he was so glad that me and his Gearlfriend were getting together.
It was such a nice visit and so comfortable, I have always felt such comfort and love with Cori, we all have. She is someone who you just want to be with and she has a great sense of humor which we love. She shared how much she and Christine and all at the clinic miss Alec and they think of him all the time.
She told Keith before that when she moved into a new home that there was a Cardinal that had been there and her son would point to it and she told Keith that she told her son it was Alec. She told me this day that the Cardinal is still always around and she know it's the same one because he is plump.
I was thankful that Cori came over and thankful that we still have a relationship with her. She is so special. She has a way, she just understands. I told her how I feel like I let Alec down because I cannot live life like him, how strong and brave he was, how he embraced life with all the pain and struggle he endured yet I am just surviving one day to the next. She reassured me that Alec knows how heart broken I am/ we are and he understands that this is so so hard for me/for us. He is sad too and he hurts too and understands.
She said one thing that helped me not feel so bad when she said " Laura, you are upright and that is huge". It is true, I said to God that I would not survive this, I would be in an institution or worse if I didn't have Alec here in my arms. Yet somehow I get up every day with a broken heart, but I get up.
I didn't want Cori to go, but I am so glad I got to see her, she knew it came with so many emotions to see her and was glad I did it anyway. There were other amazing signs that I believe was a reassurance from Alec that I needed that we shared that blew us away. It was crazy and amazing.
It was such a nice visit and so comfortable, I have always felt such comfort and love with Cori, we all have. She is someone who you just want to be with and she has a great sense of humor which we love. She shared how much she and Christine and all at the clinic miss Alec and they think of him all the time.
She told Keith before that when she moved into a new home that there was a Cardinal that had been there and her son would point to it and she told Keith that she told her son it was Alec. She told me this day that the Cardinal is still always around and she know it's the same one because he is plump.
I was thankful that Cori came over and thankful that we still have a relationship with her. She is so special. She has a way, she just understands. I told her how I feel like I let Alec down because I cannot live life like him, how strong and brave he was, how he embraced life with all the pain and struggle he endured yet I am just surviving one day to the next. She reassured me that Alec knows how heart broken I am/ we are and he understands that this is so so hard for me/for us. He is sad too and he hurts too and understands.
She said one thing that helped me not feel so bad when she said " Laura, you are upright and that is huge". It is true, I said to God that I would not survive this, I would be in an institution or worse if I didn't have Alec here in my arms. Yet somehow I get up every day with a broken heart, but I get up.
I didn't want Cori to go, but I am so glad I got to see her, she knew it came with so many emotions to see her and was glad I did it anyway. There were other amazing signs that I believe was a reassurance from Alec that I needed that we shared that blew us away. It was crazy and amazing.
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