I just read a book, "Heaven is Real", it's written by a man who is a pastor and he got in a car wreck when he was 38 and died for 90 minutes and went to Heaven.
There was one particular part that really hit me and made me realize something.
He tells of how he was in the hospital, (he was in real bad shape physically and in so much pain plus he was bitter and angry that this was his life), and lots of people were coming in wanting to help him in some way, but he always told them he didn't need anything. One of his retired Pastor friends was there when he once again said no to help from visitors and his pastor friend said to him,"These people care about you.You can't imagine how deeply they love you." The man said he knew that. And the friend said,"Well you're not doing a good job of letting them know you are aware, they want to just do something for you..anything." The man said that he didn't want them to do anything. Then his friend said, "It's the only thing they have to offer you, and you're taking that gift away from them." (Love, that is)
It hit me because I had done this same thing. I refused help because all I needed was Alec and if someone asked if there was anything I needed or if they could do anything, my heart and head screamed "Yes, I need Alec", but I just shook my head no, because I knew no one could give me Alec. And because I knew this, I figured no one could do anything to help me. So I shut everyone out . After reading this, I realized that I took away that gift that others were trying to give, the gift of their Love because it was all they could give.
I wasn't able to fully appreciate all the Love that was and still is sent our way.
I just want to say thank you to every one whom loved us and loves us and Alec, I know your love and prayers lifted us when we needed them most and still do.
There was one particular part that really hit me and made me realize something.
He tells of how he was in the hospital, (he was in real bad shape physically and in so much pain plus he was bitter and angry that this was his life), and lots of people were coming in wanting to help him in some way, but he always told them he didn't need anything. One of his retired Pastor friends was there when he once again said no to help from visitors and his pastor friend said to him,"These people care about you.You can't imagine how deeply they love you." The man said he knew that. And the friend said,"Well you're not doing a good job of letting them know you are aware, they want to just do something for you..anything." The man said that he didn't want them to do anything. Then his friend said, "It's the only thing they have to offer you, and you're taking that gift away from them." (Love, that is)
It hit me because I had done this same thing. I refused help because all I needed was Alec and if someone asked if there was anything I needed or if they could do anything, my heart and head screamed "Yes, I need Alec", but I just shook my head no, because I knew no one could give me Alec. And because I knew this, I figured no one could do anything to help me. So I shut everyone out . After reading this, I realized that I took away that gift that others were trying to give, the gift of their Love because it was all they could give.
I wasn't able to fully appreciate all the Love that was and still is sent our way.
I just want to say thank you to every one whom loved us and loves us and Alec, I know your love and prayers lifted us when we needed them most and still do.
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