It was a family joke that whenever Nicole called me, Keith, Cassidy and Alec would always say,
"There's always time for Nicole !", because I almost always took her call which is unusual for me because I hate talking on the phone. Alec and Cass thought this was so funny and would run over to me with the phone and say, "It's Nicole, it's Nicole!!"
I would be so lost without my best friend. She has been strength, comfort and support and so much more for me. Nicole has sat with me and still sits with me while I cry and cry as she cries and cries with me. She has listened for hours upon hours at a time when all I've talked about is Alec and how heartbroken I am. As she shared how heartbroken and sad she is for us and for her as she misses Alec so much. I have so many friends, family who have offered any way they can help and to just cry with me and offer to sit with me while I yelled and screamed and cried, and I am so grateful to you all, but I just could not be with anyone else. I would only let Nicole into my life, my heart and my soul. I can only say that because she is my "soul friend" (that's the best way to describe our friendship), I knew in my heart that she felt my pain and sorrow the closest to the way I felt it of anyone outside of Keith and Cass. I also knew that she just understood that I did not want and could not talk about anything other than Alec and Cassidy.
This is so hard to write as I have so many emotions and love for my extraordinary friend. Nicole shares with me how she talks to Alec constantly and ways she asks him to help us, and there have been times that I shared something positive that has happened and she will grab my arm and her eyes fill as she tells me how she was asking Alec to help me and us.
The first time this happened was after she stopped by to check on me and us. We were obviously in a really bad place and so so sad. She left heartbroken for us and talked to Alec and asked him for a sign that we were going to be ok because she was so so worried. Right after she left she had to go into the store Kohl's for shoes for Kevin jr. and she saw boxes of shoes named "Alec's" shoes. Nicole practically lives at Kohl's store and has never seen these before. She knew Alec was letting her know he heard her and he was helping us.
Throughout our 23 plus years of friendship, Nicole has been the "Motormouth" as Alec called her so lovingly! And I was mostly the listener, this is our perfect system. Our roles have switched and I am the Motormouth and Nicole is the listener. She always has some words of wisdom from Alec that help me at the times I need it most.
I have tried so many times to write about my best friend on here, but words fail me.
Even now, it's not enough. All I can say in Alec's words is Nicole, "I am so blessed to have you". Thank you for standing by me, sitting with me, loving me and taking care of me and Keith, Cassidy and Alec. We Love You
"There's always time for Nicole !", because I almost always took her call which is unusual for me because I hate talking on the phone. Alec and Cass thought this was so funny and would run over to me with the phone and say, "It's Nicole, it's Nicole!!"
I would be so lost without my best friend. She has been strength, comfort and support and so much more for me. Nicole has sat with me and still sits with me while I cry and cry as she cries and cries with me. She has listened for hours upon hours at a time when all I've talked about is Alec and how heartbroken I am. As she shared how heartbroken and sad she is for us and for her as she misses Alec so much. I have so many friends, family who have offered any way they can help and to just cry with me and offer to sit with me while I yelled and screamed and cried, and I am so grateful to you all, but I just could not be with anyone else. I would only let Nicole into my life, my heart and my soul. I can only say that because she is my "soul friend" (that's the best way to describe our friendship), I knew in my heart that she felt my pain and sorrow the closest to the way I felt it of anyone outside of Keith and Cass. I also knew that she just understood that I did not want and could not talk about anything other than Alec and Cassidy.
This is so hard to write as I have so many emotions and love for my extraordinary friend. Nicole shares with me how she talks to Alec constantly and ways she asks him to help us, and there have been times that I shared something positive that has happened and she will grab my arm and her eyes fill as she tells me how she was asking Alec to help me and us.
The first time this happened was after she stopped by to check on me and us. We were obviously in a really bad place and so so sad. She left heartbroken for us and talked to Alec and asked him for a sign that we were going to be ok because she was so so worried. Right after she left she had to go into the store Kohl's for shoes for Kevin jr. and she saw boxes of shoes named "Alec's" shoes. Nicole practically lives at Kohl's store and has never seen these before. She knew Alec was letting her know he heard her and he was helping us.
Throughout our 23 plus years of friendship, Nicole has been the "Motormouth" as Alec called her so lovingly! And I was mostly the listener, this is our perfect system. Our roles have switched and I am the Motormouth and Nicole is the listener. She always has some words of wisdom from Alec that help me at the times I need it most.
I have tried so many times to write about my best friend on here, but words fail me.
Even now, it's not enough. All I can say in Alec's words is Nicole, "I am so blessed to have you". Thank you for standing by me, sitting with me, loving me and taking care of me and Keith, Cassidy and Alec. We Love You
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